Experiences From The Flow 25: Musings From A Recovering Thai-a-holic
August 23rd, 2010 | 
Author: Experiences From The Flow 25: Musings From A Recovering Thai-a-holic
Prosperity: The eternal flow of all thats good in life
By Carl J.C. Pantejo Copyright October 2008
Author My Friend Yu The Prosperity Mentor Copyright August 2007. Pantejo Y.N. Vurce Publishing.
Subtitled: What I learned about Myself in Thailand.
Lost Objectivity
Many times when youre too close to a situation you tend to lose your perspective on life.
Call it what you will the heat of the moment the situational fervor the unique environmental reinforcements whatever they all tend to warp the minds of even the most rational individuals.
Your lifes Big Picture is not so clear anymore.
Priorities in the real world lose significance and the illusions of fantasy land seem so vital. Things that you wouldnt hesitate to brush away as pure nonsense suddenly become significant.
While in this Alice in Wonderland mindset basal needs take on an urgency of mythical proportions.
Consequently objectivity is lost and can only be recovered after a series of hard knock lessons.
Thats exactly what I let happen to me in Thailand
Time to CoolDown
Now that Ive been out of Thailand for over 4 months I can look back at the whole experience in a different light i.e. from a different more objective point of view.
Moreover Ive come to realize that I learned many things about myself time money life etc. and experienced some hard life lessons from my in country years in the Land of Smiles.
I call it in country time because in many ways Thailand can feel like unfamiliar hostile territory. Farangs Thai: foreigners are in a hot zone; battling communication barriers and contending with almost opposite social and sexual mores.
Throw in the uncertainty of residence or employment and you instantly have fertile ground for undue stress and the perpetuation of personal demons alcoholism sex drugs etc. as justification for relief.
Maybe thats why the personal behavior of foreigners now and those of soldiers during the Vietnam era are still quite similar?
Such was the case for me in Thailand.
At Tamp;A Thaiaholics Anonymous
Standing at the podium:
Me: Hello. My name is J.C. and Im a Thaiaholic.
Audience: Helloooo J.C.!
Me: Its been nine hours since I had my last Thai
Roaring sound of clapping from the approving audience
Seriously though Thailand and especially Thai women can easily seduce a man. The longer one stays in Thailand exposed to all the exotic temptations the harder it is to leave.
It can truly become an addiction and quickly reshuffle many a mans life priorities.
Stereotypical Beginnings
My story begins like many others. I originally visited Thailand for a short one week vacation. In my mind this was to be another personal vacation of hedonistic pleasure.
Financially I was duly prepared; having saved up my mad money a year and a half in advance. Excluding my airfare I planned to spend at least 1200014000 baht approximately 400425 USD per day.
In other words I had enough money to have a dangerously crazy time!
From what Id read in various Thaioriented blogs and internet sites concerning the cost of living and playing in Thailand I figured this was enough to indulge in what I envisioned as a marathon of physical gratification.
And indulge I did.
What actually happened?
Suffice it to say that my first week in Thailand was the most pleasureseeking week of my life. It surpassed all expectations Id fantasized about for over a year.
Spending about 93 of my dream vacation budget I sampled the exotic culture and generously contributed to the local economy by beginning my drinking at noon.
Then everyday for the next six days I had at least three different escorts visited 34 different bars ate at a new restaurant and stayed at a different hotel or motel every night.
Did you do the math? Thats right. In less than seven days I had at least 18 different escorts! Maybe 21 is likely the more accurate number? I honestly dont know.
And no the sexual performance/prowess was not pharmaceutically enhanced save for copious amounts of alcohol.
The continuous physical activity had a delightful side effect.
At the end of the week in spite of the enormous amounts of calories I ingested in the form of decadently rich meals desserts beer and mixed drinks I actually lost weight. Not mere water weight but according to my high precision calipers for measuring bodyfat in elite athletes real fat loss.
Anyone else up for the Thai sex diet and exercise plan?
Serendipity or Curse?
As luck fate or karma would have it the night before I was to leave Thailand a fellow American called me at my hotel and offered me a job.
He had an English school and supplied the local government schools with foreign nativespeaking English teachers. A current employee had an emergency in the States leaving a gap that needed to be filled immediately.
In spite of never teaching English before I eagerly said yes; mainly because I thought the job could prolong my new Thailand fantasy lifestyle.
And working in the country would spare me from using my military pension during my stay I thought. But in reality over the following months and years I found myself dipping into my pension for unexpected obligations numerous faux emergencies outright scams overpriced Farang commodities and fellow teacher bailouts.
Besides Id been an instructor almost my whole adult life in military and civilian schools teaching a wide range of medical business administrative and military subjects to soldiers High School students adulteducation students and hospital personnel.
Teaching English to Thai students couldnt be that hard could it?
A Teachers Cure
Question: What is the cure for the itch to teach English overseas?
Answer: Thailand!
In no way am I saying this in an arrogant or cavalier manner.
After teaching English in elite EP English Program setups adult night schools childrens after school and weekends programs and individual private classes for over two years I can safely say from experience that the overwhelming majority of such programs and socalled English teachers are all show and no go.
The only criteria for attending English class at all levels is cash not the motivation to learn nor the presence of a baseline knowledge of English.
The number one reason for teaching English is cash not the passion for teaching nor the presence of rudimentary teaching skills.
If a student can pay he stays and passes. If a teacher can barely speak English and has white skin he stays and gets paid.
This is where I had the most problems because although I had more education and experience as an instructor the fact that I am Asian made it doubly difficult to get employment with the normal farang pay.
Why did I stay? In a word. Women.
Im not going to blow smoke up you a.
Im not going to say that the combination of weather food and culture was my initial or main reason for staying although in time they helped me rationalize staying just a few more months. And the few more months turned into over two years..
Nope.
My main reason for staying in Thailand was: Women.
Why did I finally leave? Again in a word. Women.
Let me explain both sides the Stay/Leave reasons in more detail.
Stay Side
In my opinion the women of Thailand and I include not just Thais but also the women from Cambodia Laos Malaysia and Vietnam that come to Thailand to live work and stay are ridiculously physically genetically gifted!
Most western women go to great lengths just to come close to the feminine beauty that most Asians take for granted.
Asian women from early childbearing age and well into their middle age years naturally possess what most Farangs describe as awesome hot bodies and sweet angel faces.
Unlike the west hourglass figures are the norm in Asia. Their waisttohip ratios are unbelievable almost scary erotic feminine anime incarnate!
And the way they carry themselves could put many runway models to shame.
I describe most of my Asian girlfriends as having waists that are just Three Palms Wide and busts that are Insanely HideNSeekable.
Asian women revel in their femininity; not hampered by the commonly seen malefemale role confusion of most western women. They know that they are women enjoy it and dont try to be men i.e. physically emotionally psychologically etc..
They can be extremely attentive almost to the point of mothering/smothering a grown man and are flagrantly sexy.
I tell many of my western buddies that most Thai women secrete pheromones that can attract anything male within a 50mile radius!
So since physical beauty/sexiness was high on my list of wants at the time the decision to stay was a nobrainer.
But everything has a flipside
Leave Side
1. Most Thai women can not speak English at a level thats remotely conducive to any real communication.
2. If they can speak English most will talk about mundane albeit culturally ingrained topics all the time. The banal banter over things like money food gossip and relatives are covered daily over and over again.
It gets old very fast.
3. Its all about the Benjamins money. No money no honey. Period. Think Im being jaded? Have you ever seen a Thai woman stay with a poor foreigner for any if any length of time? No.
In fact most Thai women routinely take the foreigners money and then sneak back to their local nomoney abusive tuktuk driving boyfriends or husbands.
Or how bout the effect on a mans ego to discover that his girlfriend is still madly in love with her masculine female lover?
After the money is taken from the unsuspecting farang a good time is had by all the locals. Im sure a lot of celebrations at the expense of the stupid foreigner still happen daily all over the kingdom.
Why the cutthroat monetary philosophy and tactics? Sadly because of mass poverty money means a lot more than money in the western sense in Asia.
Most Westerners try to use money and love people. Unfortunately to the misfortune of most foreigners in Thailand the reverse is true.
4. Honorable Dishonesty. Lying is both rampant and culturally accepted. Its true that saving face is usually the main reason for lying but lying just for the sake of lying had become an alltoocommon daily occurrence.
Maybe it was just plain intellectual laziness? I dont know. But what I do know is that I made giant leaps in terms of communication ability to try to connect with no reciprocal benefits; only blank stares embarrassing giggles and blatant obstinacy and lies.
Sorry but its hard enough to learn a new language only to find out later that what was said was patently false.
Time well spent?
Was it worth it? It all depends.
And its hard to explain.
You see unless youve actually experienced living in Thailand it is hard to fathom it. Its like trying to explain how life in the military is to someone who has never been a soldier. Or like trying to explain how prison life is to someone who has never been incarcerated.
No words can do justice to the gamut of differences from normal life.
Aside from the beautiful women tropical surroundings cheap local food and radically different culture and religion let me list some other things I had to contend with:
*Xenophobia: Most Thai people live in a hermetically sealed societal bubble and really dont care to know about the rest of the world. In their minds they are Thai and thats all that matters.
Conversely if one is not Thai one aint hit!
*Spend spend spend: Act like a tourist and get ripped off like a tourist!
*The transient nature of foreigners feeds into the mercenary demeanor and nationalistic ideology of the Thai people.
This results in a loop of exploitation and further mutual distrust.
You can see it on their faces. The expressions of repugnance subtle gestures of disrespect and overt actions of exasperation are more than selfexplanatory.
And while in the midst of other Farangs or invisible incognito as a Thai National among the locals Ive heard the following sentiments expressed several times during my stay:
Farang: Why does everyone think Im a walking ATM? Jeez Im tired of being treated like a continual streetside freakshow!
No wonder most foreigners dont stay here very long
Thais: Why should we Thais treat Farangs like real people? They are not Thai and dont deserve all that money they spend in Thailand. They are not Buddhist. They are rude.
They are temporary. They never stay long enough to really matter. Yes some of them try to stay and pretend to be Thai but they will never be Thai.
Sooner than later almost all of them will leave Thailand anyway
So Id better get as much money from those Rich Farangs as quickly as I can before theyre gone again!
*English? We dont need no stinking English! Otherwise known as the Even though we know how to speak English lets see just how much we can confuse inconvenience and frustrate the foreigner game.
*No Dogs or ExPats Allowed: Thailands immigration laws are grossly slanted towards tourism and blatantly discriminatory to foreign residents even to foreigners whose wives are Thai Nationals.
It becomes quickly apparent that Thailand wants tourists not ExPats; making foreign residents feel like secondclass citizens.
Pay taxes? Yes.
Long term residential security? No!
Property Rights? Dont make me laugh!
A foreigner has to roll the dice when it comes to purchasing land or a home; of course usually in his Thai significant others name or some convoluted corporate cover scheme.
Either way it leaves all foreigners vulnerable to a speedy reversal of promises and land/property seizure by the Thai government.
And by the way because of the Buddhist religion Soi Dogs Thai: Street Dogs are ostensibly tolerated and cared for.
These strays are everywhere and seem to have carte blanche to do whatever they want and lay wherever they please.
I cant tell you how many times Ive had to step over a sleeping dog while entering or exiting a 711 store; or even worse barely avoiding an accident on my motorcycle because of multiple sleeping dog obstacles in the road!
*You can work here but YOU WILL PAY: For foreign workers and teachers in particular working permit/visas and even passports are routinely and illegally held hostage by employers. The procedures are both costly and headacheinducing.
Visa runs are still a necessity for most keeping the visa run companies flush with customers.
*Lowest on the Family Totem Pole: Some wise advice: Never get between a Thai and her family. You will lose!
In the west when a couple decides to marry it is assumed that they now in terms of life significance hold each other in the highest regard; effectively turning the couple into the primary family; while all relatives become secondary.
Not so in Thailand.
In spite of being the husband breadwinner and head of household the foreigner will never come close to the relative importance of his mates family.
*Life Draining Farangs: The longer I spent in Thailand the longer I found myself looking at other Farangs suspiciously. The majority of them were the kind of people I would never associate with in my own country.
After a few months I found myself consciously avoiding them as much as possible. And if that was not feasible I would take a very long time to get to know them before accepting any offers to socialize outside of the workplace.
Why?
Because most of them turned out to be: bankrupt drunks druggies wife or girlfriend abusers suffering from abusive wives or girlfriends or running from the consequences of their financial or legal indiscretions in their own countries.
Personal hygiene was a hit or miss.
Standing in for them because of their multiple bouts of the flu a.k.a drunken or drug binges made me resent the fact that honest hard and dependable performance on my part only resulted in more work for me.
I got tired of their sad lifedraining attitudes.
Since I firmly believe that a person eventually becomes the knowledge he seeks and the company he keeps I stood at a safe distance on the sidelines as I witnessed many tragedies of selfdestruction unfold.
So back to the original question of was it worth it?
In my case I would say yes. I learned a lot about myself my passions my weaknesses my personal thresholds on many public and private fronts and most of all how easily anything pleasurable can turn into a negative addiction.
In Retrospect
If I had to do it all over again Id certainly keep the following items in mind:
*Do I have a set of preplanned clear goals career financial physical personal etc. that I could pursue in country?
*Periodically ask myself Am I moving towards or away from my goals?
*Do I have a firm entry duration and exit strategy arrival date length of stay and a leave no matter what date?
Those Nagging Questions
After awhile I could not keep certain questions from appearing and reappearing in my mind. Questions like:
Where am I going? Really?
Am I progressing in any important areas of my life here?
Am I getting richer or poorer?
Are my relationships real or fake?
How long can I keep doing this and honestly say Im investing in my future?
My answers to these questions lead me to the realization that for me Thailand is a nice place to visit but as a place to live a significant portion of the rest of my life was out of the question.
For Those Who Disagree
I know that some of you ExPats living as retirees in Thailand disagree with much of my article.
And I do concede that at certain stages of life and levels of financial stability one might have a diametrically opposing point of view. Age and money does play a large part in the decision to stay in Thailand as a foreign resident.
When I lived and worked in Thailand I was 43 years old and had settled into a working mans lifestyle. That is I taught six days a week and drastically cut down my nocturnal forays into Bangkok making it a once a week ritual.
In fact for a stretch of many months I would have livein girlfriends.
The details of my torrid heartbreaking and oftentimes humorous affairs are too numerous and complex to spell out in this article. But you can read about them in previous Experiences from the Flow series articles.
In short I wasnt doing doubles and triples at Soi Cowboy and Nana Plaza anymore. So compared to my initial week in Thailand I lived rather conservatively.
I received a modest U.S. military pension but only delved into it for what I deemed as extreme circumstances. My main financial resource was an after tax Thai salary of 5560000 baht/month from my day teaching job and weekend or night classes.
But even with the above income there were times when I felt pressured to spend more than I wanted to simply because I was either the oldest person in a group outing or because I was the Rich Farang.
Failure to do so would have branded me as keeneeow a Cheap Charlie.
Although I would calmly acquiesce on the outside I harbored a rising resentment toward the way the culture seemed just like one giant setup against foreigners. And the results were always the same: bills for the Farang and some kind of payoff for the locals.
No exaggeration.
In over 9 out of 10 instances no matter who is really at fault when a problem arises between a foreigner and a Thai the foreigner usually is labeled as the wrongdoer and can only escape further persecution by providing a hefty donation a.k.a. bribe to the local representative of the law/authority.
Of course neither written records nor official receipts are issued.
To those of you who are willing to take the positives with the negatives and still feel good about yourselves I say Great. Good for you.
But for me Ive tasted the Thai lifestyle enjoyed all that I could and look back on all of it as a great learning experience; full of people events and things I probably could never have gotten anywhere else.
And now Im ready for other places people and adventures.
Presently especially after my stay in Thailand its now easier to resist becoming a Filipinaholic
Until next time find The Flow and jump in!
Your Friend in this Intrepid Journey called Life
Carl J.C. Pantejo
Farang Asia Thai culture ExPat differences money sex vacation stay leave.
About the writer:nbsp;nbsp;He is a retired U.S. Military veteran. Believing that school was too boring he dropped out of High School early; only to earn an A.A. B.S. and MBA in less than 4 years much later in life while working fulltime as a Navy/Marine Corps Medic. In spite of a fear of heights and deep water he freefall parachuted out of airplanes and performed diving ops in very deep open ocean water.
Carl J.C. Pantejo
Founder Y.N. Vurce Publishing
http://www.ynvurcepublishing.com
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